You know some people bother me. I am really glad you are feeling the way I felt a few years ago. Maybe thats why I was so bitter. To se you in this pain doesn't give me plesure, but it does make me feel better. Because now maybe you know how bad you really hurt me. I WAS feeling these same feelings. So hopefully know you know what it feels like to have someone say they love you over and over agian then dump you on your ass like you ment nothing to them. Maybe know you will understand the pain and the longing to be with the one who hurt you so badly. I AM over you I am just glad that you feel now how I once felt a few years ago.
Sorry this happend to you I really am. But honestly what were you expecting. I ask that same question now. And were you really expecting me to be thrilled about the whole situation. That was the one thing I asked of you and you ignored it. So maybe this was ment to be.
I am happy now you will be too one day but not until you have been through what I have been through. This post was ment for one person and they Know who they are.
Good luck with everything else Hope it doesn't get too bad.

wow everyone is breaking up right now???? which is wierd. The cool thing is, is that I have a very stable relationship. Which I love! He is AMAZING!!!! sorry that was little random but I,m sorry for the people who may be down. perk up there is always a better guy out there! except me I think I found him!

I had a 3 hour long conversation with someone from ROTC someone from the inside who knows a lot. the senior girls know who I'm talking about. The junior's... or one of them.
I found out I was pretty much hated. By almost everyone. The conversation was more of a friendly bashing. Now the junior was just answering my questions so he did nothing wrong but he was far from suttle about things. I found out that even some of my best friends said shit about me. I tried my best just to be nice. Yeah sometimes I would get worked up about things but that didn't mean that I didn't try to be nice. I stuck up for people like AJ for jobs and all he did was treat me like shit!
I am not sure why I posted this I guess I was just upset that almost everyone hated me. Or maybe because I'm just extremly hurt and needed to vent. I really dont understand the whole junior stuff that went on. But now I think everything was just a waste of my time in ROTC I never got reconized for hardly anything and when I did Escobar would try to take my glory! Who knows all that I know now is that I can only hope this sort of thing wont happen again...
Well thanks for all the good times it was fun but it hurts now... I am just really upset that one of my best friends would say those things about me.
and no robyn this is not about you... :)

guess what guys I got my noes PIERCED!!!!! ahhhhh cool uhhh I'm excited and I love it. It still kinda hurts though. Nothing has really changed I miss the drill team a lot and ROTC. I do like the no commitment thing to ROTC that I do like though. Thier is also the eli thing we are doing better than ever we just celebrated our 2 YEAR!!!!!!!! Other than that not a lot has been going on I thought I would just give an update. Oh and I work at bath and body works!!!! and I love it!!!!! It is so much fun! I also love living with my roomates they are so much fun! School starts in sep. and I am so excited. well I guess that is it. I think anyway I miss you all!

well guess what guys and girls Erika is out of her house!!! I have a beautiful house up in renton! its 2,800 sq ft and has a wonderful view I live with two great friends caitlin and jessica!! this is seriously awesome I love it so much I can't explain to you all how great everything is going! BTW mexico was AMAZING I loved it and all the kids were sooooooo cute I will get pics up like tommorow I think if I have time that is so yeah I have 3 jobs at the moment and for those of you who don't know I do have my license and my 3 jobs are house cleaning, nanning, and Bath and Body works!!! so That is a ton of fun so I miss you all!!!! I hate to admit it but I am already missing ROTC and everything that comes with it even the stress! But I guess I will have new stress! and I wanted an opinoin what do you all think of fashion design I love it with a passion and I think I will like nursing too but I dont know whitch I should do it's all really confuseing! oh well so its late and I do have to work tommorow so bye all!!!

alright I promise I will post about graduation soon I have just been extremly busy and I just wanted to say bye! I'm leaving for mexico tommorow AKA friday at 3 AM woot! so just wanted to say bye and I'll be back in 10 days and I'll update LJ bye bye guys dont have too much fun without me!!!! oh and I HATE FLYING SHIT SHIT SHIT thats ok... oh and I just remebered i have to fly home too! :( but its mexico so I'm happy :)lol bye guys

say goodbye to my hair...

so Prom was amazing it was so much fun! The limo picked us up at the community center at about 4:30 then we had some money issues but it was worked out. After that ordeal we went to benihana's and ate. Thier calamari was AMAZING BEST CALAMARI EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the had really great scallops,shrimp, mushrooms, zuchini, onions well everything. The we stopped at pike place and hung out there for awhile and bassically just walked arouen we got a lot of kick ass compliements. then our limo driver picked us up and we went to prom. While there we hung out I was at the top of the space needle most of the night it was beautiful we saw the sun setting and we saw it at night OMG it was so aswome it was really romantic too Eli said he had a really great time too. the space needle was a little cramed but other that that it was really good. the desserts there were amazing there were these really great chocolate shells with creme in them and an essresso coffe bean it was really delicous. we dancend and that was fun. but a little annouying because the music sucked oh well... after prom we drove around seattle for a little bit and then went to annie's when we were there we hung out and went swimming then sat in the hot tub for awhile Eli and I whatched t.v. then eli and I left around 4:00 am ish went back to my house BTW we heard birds chirping when we left which was pretty funny Eli slept on the couch downstairs and I slept upstairs. I slept until 2 pm that is a grand total of 10 hours wooooooooooooooooooooooooot im very proud of myself and apparently 4 people tried to wake me up multipul times!!!! yeah im proud of that toooooo! so yeah that was prom night I got some great pictures!!!

so I am totally stocked for prom! The only thing was that it was quite stressful. people dropped out of my prom group and that totally screws things over! but I found 3 other people so that was pretty bomb! everything else went very well and I found the perfect resteraunt it's called BeniHanna's and it's a really cool japanesse place. the limo was not so easy I looked for three days straight then I finnaly got a hold of apple limosuine then they said they had one limo it was an 18 passenger for a 14 passenger price! so that was great. and no prom is in a couple of hours wooot I cant wait!

soooo I havent posted anything for awhile. Nothing has really been happening except swing dancing party's and prom so on friday I had so much fun yeah pimpen anyone questioning this doesnt know what happened maybe its for the best. saterday I went swing dancing. The clud I went to is bad luck for me. I got dropped by this guy kevin who has been dancing for like 8 years he is insanly good at dancing and he dropped me fuck that sucked hahaha i rymed kinda... then sunday i went dancing at century ball room it was so much fun but it was a little too crowded but it was still a lot of fun. and monday and tuesday nothing really except trying to get prom together